Sunday, September 21, 2014
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Sunday, August 24, 2014
Sunday, August 03, 2014
Saturday, August 02, 2014
1) I had time. I've been stressing about my dissertation and about life that I have been paralyzed in fear of moving in any direction. In essence, I've been wasting time just thinking about things and not doing things. Once my degree is done, I'll have all the time in the world again. Just get her done already!
2) When I moved to Texas, I had no cable or internet at my apartment. While I cannot do without the internet due to my dissertation, I can, however, get rid of the cable. My contract is up very soon. I actually worked out more because of this since if I wanted to watch a specific football game, I had to go to the gym to watch it. I actually may unplug sooner just to unplug...
3) I had cooking days in which I made all my meals for the week and stuck to a grocery budget. These are things I can start with right off the bat.
4) I had a support system. I verbally announced my intentions during my bible study group this past Monday.
Movement forward, even if on an old path, is better than staying stagnant. Look out world, the old me is on the verge of being present again!
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Monty is now 18.5 years old (91 in human years), and he's been mine for over half my life. Adoption is a promise of forever...a lifetime commitment. Trust me when I say that there are days I want to give up on him as he ages, but I remember plenty of his quirky personality characteristics that make me smile and make me a proud momma. As a kitten, his favorite game was fetch down the stairs or taking a walk on his leash and to this day, his favorite snack is plastic bags (not that I encourage this behavior). I found out later that some chemicals or oils used in manufacturing plastic bags resemble catnip, but he probably does have the disorder pica and was genetically predisposed to this condition since he is part Siamese. (I know, he doesn't look Siamese, but the crook in his tail gave it away!)
Lately, with my new job having me travel more, I feel guilty that he's alone so much. I've been debating about getting a dog so that he has somebody, but also so that I get out of the house and walk more. I even visited a few dogs at one location. During this process, I have read one too many times in which animals have been either owner-surrendered or owner-abandoned. Both of these have prompted me to write this blog, especially since I believe adoption is a promise and a commitment to forever. I will not deny the fact that my parents helped me by taking care of Monty the years I was in college, but they made it clear from the beginning that he was my cat and my responsibility.
I consider an owner-surrendered animal to be one in which the owner could either no longer care for it appropriately or the owner, through no fault of their own, had to get rid of the animal. I appreciate that these owners want to do what is best for their pets, but I wish they would try to rehome their pet themselves either through a rehoming program or using their networks. My sister rehomed one of her cats to a family friend and that gave them the ability to follow-up with my sister about anything that may have come up in the first few months. In the local area, Austin Pets Alive! has a rehoming program. Shelters can stress out an animal very easily, and let's not forget that there are still many shelters who euthanize animals when there isn't room.
An owner-abandoned animal, in my opinion, is one in which the owner moves and abandons the animal on the current property thus forcing the animal to become a stray. I have seen this most frequently with cats, but it seems that this is now occurring more frequently with dogs too. These animals are left to fend for themselves on the streets. I have a hard time forgiving the owners who do this to an animal. At the very least, surrender the animal to the shelter.
Since I'm not sure I want another 18+ year commitment, I have decided that if I was going to adopt either a cat or a dog, it will not be a young one. While older ones may have some behavioral issues that need to be addressed due to being left at the shelter or abandoned, I rather make the shorter commitment. The other thing that I've been thinking about is fostering animals for a bit. This way, I'm saving another life at a shelter that still uses euthanasia as a means to fix the problem and not making a lifelong commitment to an animal. Our neighborhood has adopted a stray cat, socialized and fixed a feral cat, and are working on capturing another feral to have him fixed as well.
Animal owners need to realize that they have committed to taking care of their pets for the duration of their lives. I never imagined Monty would live this long, but he has brought me a lot of joy throughout the years and I wouldn't trade that in heartbeat.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Sunday, July 06, 2014
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
This trip to San Diego has been rather interesting. I love how friendly everybody is. Austin used to be that way, but I feel that over the eight years I have been there, it's become a bit more vain. And I can't complain about the San Diego weather either. At the same time, I'm not ready to let go. I know I have about a year left to go with my degree, so I don't need to make any rash decisions. I'm hoping God will clarify soon where I belong.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
With all these coincidences occurring, and since this individual did not have the opportunity to approach me, I sent him a reply. We went back and forth for a couple of days and I was able to verify it truly was me who he saw. Because I'm a hopeless romantic, I wondered if this was my "movie-like" encounter do-over, since the first one did not work out. It seemed to be something right out of the movies after all. How many people can claim that their missed connection was no longer a missed connection?
Thankfully, this individual was open enough to let me know he was attached before it went past just e-mailing one another. When he disclosed this, I e-mailed him one last time and mentioned that he needed to share the raw emotions he shared with me with his wife or girlfriend. I asked him to think about what he was doing to her and to himself by putting these missed connections out there on Craigslist and to be fair to her. How could they work on those problems if she didn't know they existed? I hope I got through to him.
Alas, perhaps my third "movie-like" encounter will be the charm. Until then, this year will be the year focused on my health, career, school, and the Lord. I definitely don't need any additional drama. (Can you feel me rolling my eyes?)
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Group Type: Diplomats: Intuitive and Feeling types - they are cooperative, empathetic and imaginative, focusing on empathy, morality and cooperation.
Mind - Extroverted (10%): prefer group activities, think while speaking, get energized by social interaction.
Energy - Intuitive (9%): imaginative, rely on their intuition, absorbed in ideas, focus on what might happen.
Nature - Feeling (11%): sensitive, follow their hearts, focus on harmony and cooperation.
Tactics - Judging (1%): decisive, prefer clear rules and guidelines, see deadlines as sacred, seek closure.
Identity - Turbulent (55%): self-conscious, care about their image, success-driven, perfectionists.
Representing approximately 2 percent of all people, the ENFJ personality type tends to be very influential, often without making any conscious effort to increase their influence. As part of the Diplomats (NF) group, ENFJs are genuinely interested in other people and radiate authenticity, concern, and altruism. Not surprisingly, those who surround ENFJs usually find them very inspiring and likable.
ENFJs are usually very charismatic and eloquent and find it natural and easy to communicate their ideas and opinions, especially in person. It does not really matter whether they are presenting cold facts or expressing raging emotions; the ENFJ will not be afraid to stand up and speak, regardless of the audience.
This is one of the reasons why ENFJs can be so convincing and mesmerizing when they speak: they instinctively know how to combine passion and rational arguments, drawing the audience’s attention and reaching every mind. People with this personality type can be great leaders, and they do not necessarily have to get into politics to make a difference. An ENFJ teacher or coach can have a strong positive effect on many people’s lives as well.
ENFJ personalities are very intuitive. They find it easy to sense other people’s motives and find connections between seemingly unrelated events. ENFJs also tend to be quite good at analyzing their own feelings and questioning them if necessary.
On the other hand, such intuitiveness and sensitivity can also cause significant difficulties for people with this personality type. They may be too altruistic and empathetic, getting too involved in other people’s problems. They may then find it difficult to detach and stop worrying. In extreme cases, this can even affect the ENFJs’ perception of themselves.
ENFJs are optimistic idealists, often trusting other people more than they should—although this usually turns out to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. As already mentioned above, ENFJs can be very convincing and inspiring. People are drawn toward strong personalities, and the ENFJ’s charisma can often be a uniting and motivating factor.
Monday, May 05, 2014
4 Knowing their thoughts, Jesus said, "Why do you entertain evil thoughts in your hearts? 5 Which is easier: to say, 'Your sins are forgiven,' or to say, 'Get up and walk'? 6 But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins." So he said to the paralyzed man, "Get up, take your mat and go home." 7 Then the man got up and went home. 8 When the crowd saw this, they were filled with awe; and they praised God, who had given such authority to man.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
My post yesterday outlines how God made me listen earlier in the week by blessing me with a case of strep which left me speechless. I revisited Colossians 2, which has been weighing on my mind and heart for the past couple of weeks.
Colossians 2: 6-15 (NIV)
6 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, 7 rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. 8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ. 9 For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, 10 and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority. 11 In him you were also circumcised with a circumcision not performed by human hands. Your whole self ruled by the flesh was put off when you were circumcised by Christ, 12 having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through your faith in the working of God, who raised him from the dead. 13 When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, 14 having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness, which stood against us and condemned us; he has taken it away, nailing it to the cross. 15 And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.
Colossians 2: 18-19 (NIV)
18 Do not let anyone who delights in false humility and the worship of angels disqualify you. Such a person also goes into great detail about what they have seen; they are puffed up with idle notions by their unspiritual mind. 19 They have lost connection with the head, from whom the whole body, supported and held together by its ligaments and sinews, grows as God causes it to grow.On Friday, I dumped the guy I had been dating.
On Saturday, I heard our pastor preach, and maybe for the first time ever, I clearly heard God speak to me. Everything was connecting in my head all at once. I think the most powerful portion of the sermon was when re-visited John 1: 12-13 - God gives us the right/authority/power/ability to become His children, but through belief in Jesus' name. We believe in His name by confessing His nature, embracing His mission, and seeking His glory.
On Sunday, I was blessed to hear the sermon again since I was not needed in Camp Fun. It confirmed everything I already knew.
Indecisiveness wiped. A new beginning. A child of God - innocent and believing. Freedom through baptism. Perfect for this blog - Transformation.
Saturday, April 26, 2014
A whisper exists in your ear. Every bible passage you pull out and read tells you what you need to do in your current situation, but you choose not to listen. You are in control of the given situation.
Can you hear me now?
As you head to urgent care on Easter Sunday, you're still oblivious to the fact that God is talking and providing advice. All you can think about is that you need to start antibiotics today in order to still present to the CEO on Tuesday. Yet you still don't even know if you have a bacterial infection, you're just basing your diagnosis on prior illnesses.
The diagnosis is strep. Your throat and tonsils swell to make even swallowing water difficult and painful. When you try to talk, all you do is croak. You need to find a 24-hour pharmacy to get started on that antibiotic because you still need to present to the CEO. You continue to ignore that whisper in your ear.
Finally home and on an antibiotic, you don't know what to do. Everybody is visiting with family and friends on Easter and you can't even call your family to wish them a Happy Easter and catch up on life because your throat is too swollen. You choose to send a few quick texts and work on that presentation you need to give the CEO on Tuesday.
Monday arrives and you are quarantined at your house since you're still contagious. You still brush off that whisper in your ear. You take a break and open Facebook to see everybody's spring family photos from the day before. One of your more spiritual friends had posted on Easter something along the lines "He has RISEN! Let us celebrate!" You are reminded about what the holiday signifies. The last few years you always brushed it off as "just another day," but you begin to realize that it isn't just another day.
You begin to listen. It only took getting strep on Easter Sunday, being stuck home alone while in quarantine, and a dear friend's post to be reminded that sometimes you need to listen and hear what God has to say. By not allowing you to talk, you had to withdraw from the situation that needed a solution and become analytical about what was going on. You had to address and deal with it straight on. You feel better about it.
The presentation to the CEO went better than expected.
Wednesday, February 05, 2014
Since I missed yesterday's post, but saw this on my phone this morning. It was perfect timing! I have oodles of carrots from my farm share and other than stir fry, chicken noodle soup and pot roast, I have no idea what to do with them. I'll try and fix the link later today. Bon Appetit!
Monday, February 03, 2014
Sunday, February 02, 2014
Circumcise your hearts, therefore, and do not be stiff-necked any longer. For the Lord your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality and accepts no bribes. He defends the cause of the fatherless and the widow, and loves the foreigner residing among you, giving them food and clothing. And you are to love those who are foreigners, for you yourselves were foreigners in Egypt. Fear the Lord your God and serve him. Hold fast to him and take your oaths in his name. (Deuteronomy 10:16-20)I forecast that this will be an uncomfortable year of growth for me, but I am willing to step into the unknown as well as renew the heart I once had. I am not going to let the chains from my past hold me down any longer. The first part of my development is assisting our new church campus in Pflugerville/NE Austin by attending, volunteering, and growing in Christ with this community. It's been awhile since I've been a part of a small church and I miss the feeling those communities give. This will be a good thing for my growth and I know I have something to offer as well. At the commissioning last weekend, our lead pastor nailed it for me when he closed by talking about following in obedience and since I've been talking about obedience for weeks now; I am going. Alright Lord, Step 1 is complete...next?
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2)
Thursday, January 16, 2014
As I continue on the journey to become healthy, I'm not stressed out about losing weight anymore. I'm enjoying the mental release that exercise gives me and the cleaner I eat, the more energy I have. I'm tracking my calories in and my calories out. It's pretty simple. The human mind creates the chaos. I am not perfect, but I am perfectly human. This was the first year I did not make a New Year's resolution. I didn't need to resolve any issue that I've dealing with because it's not for me to fix; it's already being acted on from up above. In the past 10 days, I have lost 6.25 pounds, and yet I feel like I haven't put in 100%.
Quiet contentment. So that's what peace feels like. I can't help but smile. Or perhaps make a goofy face.
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. (Proverbs 14:30)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)