Thursday, January 16, 2014

Peaceful Revelations

I have never felt more myself than I have in the past month.  I'm not sure exactly what has changed, but I feel alive again.  The anger that used to stir up at simple things is gone, and I am now grateful for the blessings that I have had this past year.  I no longer feel out of control, but yet perfectly disciplined within my chaos.  Dare I even say it, since it's been creeping into my life for the past nine months?  Obedience - this is the main reason why I feel peaceful.  I have given up control over my life and have started following the path that I'm being lead onto.  I'm no longer in a rush to get to the destination because I'm enjoying the journey.  Trials and obstacles will always be in the direct path, but as in James 1:2-3, trials will test my faith and will produce perseverance. 

As I continue on the journey to become healthy, I'm not stressed out about losing weight anymore.  I'm enjoying the mental release that exercise gives me and the cleaner I eat, the more energy I have.  I'm tracking my calories in and my calories out.  It's pretty simple.  The human mind creates the chaos.  I am not perfect, but I am perfectly human.  This was the first year I did not make a New Year's resolution.  I didn't need to resolve any issue that I've dealing with because it's not for me to fix; it's already being acted on from up above.  In the past 10 days, I have lost 6.25 pounds, and yet I feel like I haven't put in 100%.

Quiet contentment.  So that's what peace feels like.  I can't help but smile.  Or perhaps make a goofy face.
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.  (Proverbs 14:30)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  (Philippians 4:6-7)