Thursday, February 28, 2008

Procrastinated Confession

I have been procrastinating this post for some time now, but since a few of you have been noticing that I have not posted in awhile, I figured it's time to confess... I fell off the bandwagon big time, and one of the easiest ways to know that I have is when I don't post to my blog at least a few times per week.

I do have to say, even though I live in sunny Austin, I went through a couple weeks of winter blues where I had no desire what-so-ever to exercise. The adrenaline that I got from working out decreased, so I looked to other things to keep going...aka sugar, the worst thing possible for a dieter, or, in my case, a lifestyle changer. I became addicted to sugar again, and last week was not too pretty when I tried to detox from it.

A couple weeks ago, Matt (my trainer) made me promise to go to the gym every day for a week to try and get out of my slump. I had the hardest time telling him of my woes because I knew it would make him upset and sad. He has put a lot of himself in me, not just work-wise either. Anyway, I did work out for a week straight, and was going strong on my second week until yesterday. Sundays have become my "day out of the gym" exercise day for variety. Last Sunday I played sand volleyball for 3.5 hours, and the week before I hiked probably 7 miles or so in the greenbelt. My nutrition is not completely back to normal, but I'm working on it.

Man, this post sounds depressing. What have I learned through all of this? WELL...Matt is right yet again, I'm sometimes way too hard on myself. I need to work on forgiving myself. I can forgive others pretty easily, but for some reason if I screw up myself, I just can't do it. And that's how I spiraled down.

I could blame this on the new guys that are in my life, but that would be just another excuse and I'm tired of excuses. I need to step my game back up, it's just super hard to do so when I have so many exciting things outside the gym occurring.

SO...for accountability...I weighed in this afternoon (usually I do this in the morning before my morning workout, but I haven't had one of those in weeks) at 295, last week I was 293. I may be retaining some water due to my sodium intake last night, but who knows. I have started logging my food again, so that should help.

Thanks to those who noticed my disappearing act...I've been procrastinating my confession for about week now, but now you and the world know it.


Hanlie said...

I'm just happy you're back! I missed that sunny smile! Don't worry about yesterday, today is all that matters.

Sugar is evil! It's a drug, and I can't believe people give it to their children! There's an excellent book by William Duffy, called "Sugar Blues" that tells it like it is...

I'm glad you've picked yourself up from this and are gaining confidence again. We all stumble! You're a brave girl!

Chubby Chick said...

Hang in there! We all fall off the wagon from time to time. I'm glad to hear your back on track now! Keep up the good work! :)

Scale Junkie said...
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Scale Junkie said...

I've missed your smiling face!! So happy to see you posting again!

You know we all fall down, I'm just glad you've picked yourself back up again! Just keep getting back up again and you'll get there!

Heather said...

so glad you are back! but dont happens to most of us and if it didnt happen, then I would be concerned. you see, no one is perfect and even though we all want to try to be, we are not. so things like that happen. I think you are amazing for getting out of that funk and back into weight loss mode. and I hear you wtih the sugar...detoxing from sugar is very hard, but will make things easier for you and help you stay on track. loggin your food always helps too. you know you can get the weight off, and just take it a day at a time.

Ursula said...

thanks for your honesty. I didn't realize your "absence" meant that you had fallen off the bandwagon...I thought maybe you were just busy with work or life or something...but now I know. :)

Kelly and I will continue praying for you...I hope you can get back into things more regularly soon. :)

By the way, I didn't think your post was depressing. I was sad for you since you have goals that you're trying to reach...but not depressing. I appreciate your honesty. :)