I have learned a great deal about myself these past few weeks. I can't say it is just due to the new trainer, but my life is moving in the fast lane these days. In a matter of two weeks, I finished finals for my spring semester, I took my doctoral qualifying exam, and my boyfriend moved to Italy. I'm still picking up the pieces - the house is a mess and quite frankly, my life is a mess. When my boyfriend and I were prayed over at Austin Christian Fellowship a few weeks ago, I honestly believe that God has us in these separate seasons because we each need something different. I think I know how God wants me to grow, but I'm sure it's going to be much greater than I expect. For starters, I need to surround myself with goal-orientated, positive people. To be honest, in my humble opinion and in most cases, people who complain like to put blame on the current situation onto others. If I complain loud enough, nobody is going to notice when I fail IF I choose to try and fix it. Yes, some things are out of our jurisdiction of "fixing," but as Mahatma Ghandi said “You must be the change you want to see in the world.” At the same time, though, as Will Davis, Jr. preached the other week, we must be okay with being forgotten after we die. I have been trying to pursue a legacy on earth, but the reality is, it does not matter because in 50 years, I will be forgotten.
Ghandi was a wise man, and some of the quotes that still exist should be life lessons.
1. "There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever." Ouch.I started checking out a new small group with my church since the one I co-lead disbanded about a year ago, and now that school is winding down, I can really focus on this area of my life. At dinner last night, we briefly discussed Philippians 3:13-14, "Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." You may be curious as to why I bring up this passage while I am talking about Ghandi and forgiveness. Everybody has heard of the cliche "forgive and forget." I'm not sure we are supposed to forget. If your past is holding you from your future, then yes, that is a problem, but I think we also need to learn from our past. Forgiveness, though, is the first step of forgetting. And forgiveness, as Ghandi points out, is an "attribute of the strong." And where do we get our strength? Through God. For me, the hardest person to forgive is myself.
2. "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ." True.
3. "Nobody can hurt me without my permission." Easier said than done.
4. "The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." So so true.
5. "You may never know what results come of your action, but if you do nothing there will be no result." I think this is my new lifestyle motto.
6. "The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." Let me further explain.